Mischievous Days

Just can’t do it. Just can’t stand it. Just can’t bare it. Just can’t deny it. I just can’t. Saying yes when my heart hurts when I keep on lying. I just can’t. I just couldn’t bare to hold this feeling.

I’m eyes just keep looking away. But my heart is there to stay. My words no longer mean a thing. Cause I know they’re not what they really mean. My actions are just an act. A show put up for the watchful crowds down below.

Setting up a play for those who keep on watching. For those who always keep on knocking. For those who think they know. For those who keep on talking. Putting up an act without even really thinking. How much my heart bleeds.

Why must I lie when all I want is to speek of the truth? Why must a sigh when all I want is to speek of the truth? Why must this go on?

When will I reach the end of the road and finally speek of the truth? When will the audience finally get what I really mean? When will they see? When will they learn? Why must this heart ache?

Just keep on pretending. Just keeping on lying. Till the time finally comes.

The skies dress in black. Putting on that black dress and walking down the stairs with grace. Talking steps with grace. A smile that makes the heart skip a beat. The stars arranged around you.

Alone physically. Alone it seems. Just look up. Stare at the skies and our eyes will meet. The man on the moon smiles for you. Seeing you smile and he’ll send me a signal.

Don’t cry if you fear your all alone. Don’t cry if I’m not there to keep you warm. Don’t cry if your in the car driving alone. Just look up at stars and I know your thinking of me. Don’t lose hope cause your always held close deep within me.

Don’t say that I’m lying. Cause I always here thinking. Don’t let a drop escape your eyes cause I might not be there to catch it. Don’t you ever stop smiling cause I’m not there to take your photo when the momont demands it.

Here on my balcony I stand. Looking up in the sky. Thinking of you. As the clouds take shape. Picturing your beauty in the lonely night skies above. As I just stand there looking up. As your voice keeps singing in my head. Waiting for the day we’ll be together again.

Taking time of from books and issues I just don’t understand and don’t know the root or sprout. Creeping from deep within the mind that governs this confused and wrecked body. The voice that calls a name.

I truly am confused and lost. The water that runs down a river follows a path created before. The trees that grow on the soil that sets upon the ground. Everything has a foundation to which it grows into. The moon rays creates the the stage that night rightly deserves. Yet this man is still lost in his world he steps upon.

Still craving for what he seeks. Still asking for the answers he seeks. Instead of an answer he falls into another valley to deep and camouflaged by the eerie and gleeful.

So long have I asked myself the same questions again and again. So long have I asked myself. Numerous ways taken. Uncounted days and months I have walked till this very second. Each time I take a puff of air, each time this heart ticks in the most unpleasant rhythm.

Why must my heart feel the way it feels? Why must everything be based upon a reason? Why? This is one man who never understands the path he takes. The path he walks. The path that which leads to an ending that surely will be unforgotten.

Will I ever find the answers I never know? Let time take its toll. Just let it reveal the shadows and secrets. The past shall not change. Only the future we can shape. For the present is the key to unlock the future we shall build.